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HELLO.
RABBIT HERE.
aww, keng and i came up with that name. just for me.
cute!
cos im always jumping around, making lots of noise.
:)
and keng is elephant.
dont ask me why.
its just cute.

and omg.
we took photos of ourselves and with esther!! . and hugged today!
aww.
seriously, aww.

i love keng, i hate alger.
i mean it.

today is the last day of school
HAHA, but wth, theres still lessons next week, so it doesnt really make a difference!
:)

aww.
im on aww mode today.
:)

i love zoee too. shes such a sweetie.
lifes really getting interesting.
new friends are good.
loves are perfect.
buddy is fun.

what else can i still ask for?
ANYTHING BUT YOUR FORGIVENESS.
:)

i wanna kiss a girl, i wanna hold her tight, & maybe make a little magic in the moonlight!!!(L)(L)
haha.
Cristy's blister is damn cool.
its big and gross.
I likey :D
You guys wanna see?
okay, your wish is granted:D
when did Chinese became such a bitch?
seriously.
i like the school counselor , shes a very nice lady.
I feel a lot about myself.
some ''truth talk'' needs to be done now.
so.. here it is..
i need to change my ''mindset/beliefs''
friendship is ''voluntary'', and its ''reciprocal''.
when people don't seem to accept, then it shows that the other party should withdraw too.
i can go all the way in a friendship, but when the other party reacts differently, i will end up getting hurt. :l
i can feel depressed over it a thousand times, because of what you say how you act.. etc..
but you may not be feeling what I'm feeling too.
cause my ''emotional attach'' towards you is OMFG strong.
because of this so called ''emotional attachment'', I'm feeling all kinds of rubbish, like i feel the situation is ''tense'' and ''difficult'', you're being ''unfriendly''.. blah blah.
all sorts of negative thoughts.

all i have to do now is make a change.
its not to be stubborn and not willing to let go.
i have to change my views about us, you think differently, but I just have to be honest about it.
i don't have to react according to how you react (cause she says its childish)
yes, doesn't life seemed much more meaningful with all these 'realistic facts'' about relationships??

now, deep down, I'm making a clean break with you.
You're now a white piece of paper.
i will still rmb all the good times, but now its really time to get you of my emotional attachment social circle.
i hope you will be happy in whatever you do.
:)


schools average.
I know detention sucks.
seriously..
:(

and I'm so tired now.
i think the cheena project is bloody difficult:(

and to whoever you are.
fuck stop your nonsense.
idk whether you're doing it on purpose or what so ever.
but i really don't care.
cause you don't even know me well, so who the fuck r u to even judge me when you cant even tell the gender of a person with the name Chanel?
are you fucking mad?
or maybe you're a guy and your name is already fucking gay.
LOL.
chinese project is due tmr.
but nobody is in the mood to do it.
deb was texting me about it, cristy is complaining on msn.
HAHA. and im just. feeling slack.
:9

OOMFOMGFOMFGOMFOMGOFMOGMFOGM.
i CAN USE THE DRAW DRAW FUNCTION ON MSN ALREADY.
HOW GOOD CAN LIFE GET?!
hahahahahahaha

aww, i super double love that !!
so funneh!
HAHA.
good luckk to my buddy tan.
dont fail any subject.
youre supposed to own all and make me proud=.=
HAHAHAHA
wtf.
jia you jun ying!
aww.

im talking to keng online.
I SWEAR IM GONNA MISS HER TRUCK LOADS WHEN SHES GONE.
WTF.
STUPID FISHERMAN.
goes with the fishes.
damned.
oh yes.
shes getting me a bdae gift.
WOO LALA.
:D
HAHAHAHA. omfg.
i will still miss her:(
wtf wtf wtf.
lousy keng.
wtf wtf wtf.
Im.very.d-breaast.


HAHAHA.
okay. stop blahb.
HAHA.
theres counselling tmr!
:l
theres detention tmr!
:l

wooo laa laaa.
lifes good!

im going to sleep.
nights peeps!
wtf.


Im really trying to be blind.
trying very very hard.
but, it wasnt that easy to just say goodbye.
after all the nonsense we had tgt?
why did it turned out to be such an ugly sight?
deep down, its just, the ones we used to be
:( imy


awww. yourrr post is the sweetest thing everrrr.
awww. it makes soo much sense!
i love all my bestfriends too.
they are soo hard to come by.
so... I REALLY LOVE YOU JULIA!

24th oct.
ystd was omfg, unbelievable things happened to me.
I found another buddy buddy:D, hmm, we spent 5 and a half hours tgt.
amazingly, we actually have quite alot to say to each other.
LOL, i felt soo surprised? never in my life i thought that i will actually be this normal with you agn?
yes, im happy.
so yeah, if you know your are that buddy buddy, please play that ti ti ti game with me !!
oh, and we will go shopping agn soon dude!

andreas party was (Y).
all that fun plus a blurr queen like meee, that goes around crashing everythinggg.
the plan was to meet them at 5pm and have dinner till 6.45pm then debbie and poon will sneak off to buy a cake and then head to marina barrage to prepare the ultimate surprise for drea.
however, i wasnt that nice ystd, so i didnt turn up for dinner, poon got soo angry that she hung up on me. HAHA, sorry love!
I dragged the whole outing until 8pm, and i spoilt half of it by telling andrea the plan about going to marina barrage on the phone-.-
everyone that were there got a shock when drea said marina barrage?!
HAHAHA.
deb and poon were fuming i swear.
the worst thing was, i went to meet the both of them(drea and cristy) only at eight<- damnnn late!!
and we had to take a cab there cos deb and poon were already waiting for us there-.-
so sorryyyy!
while we were in the taxi, i kinda told drea some stuff..
HAHAHA.
luckily we managed to reach there on time to cut the cake, sing the song and take pictures before deb and cristy go homee.
:D and and the rest of us were just sitting around, drea was emoing cause her church flens didnt come along with us!
but the last surprise that made her day was that all of them suddenly turned up. :D
we were evil >:/ cause we had a flour fight.
HAHA.
blah blah until 10 plus, eugi and me had to leave..
and guess what? we missed the only bus there and the next one will only arrive at 10.45pm.
fiona was damn nice cause she managed to persuade her aunt to give us a ride which already had 4 people in the car!.
can you imagine?!
plus the three of us?
5 people had to squeeze in the backseat?!
and i was the 'easier' one having too sit on ying yings lap.
HAHAHA. the ride was sooo fun. HAHA.
esp with her aunt thats damn cute:D
only managed to reach serangoon station at 11.40pm.
i swear my legs were breaking>:/
never had to walk such longggg distance in my whole entireeee life.

picturesss gonna to be up soon:D
how tiring?!
HAHA.
but i guess my mum is kinda pissed?
HAHA, nvm la!
ive got 2 weeks to make it up to herrr.
aww. yourr soo old already dreaaaaaaa.

okay, i gtg, my parents wants me to go to the supermarket with them-.-
laterrr.
iswearmymumfuckinghatesmetothecorenow.
LOL. but who really cares bout her?
Its soo fun today, really worth all the nagging.
LOL.veryyy long story i swear.
::D, happy birthday dreaaaaaaaaaaa.
i love you soo much darling:D
dont be mad at me kay?!
love you! sweet 15
Ni men hao.:)
once agn, life after exams is soo relaxing:D
i mean, we play all day, do stupid things, go for workshops, go for activities.. AND most importantly..

TAKE MAJOR NUMBER OF PHOTOS.
:):):):):)

HAHA, we had a dance module, CPR lesson? and execution to marina barrage!
fun fun fun fun fun.
the dance module was horrible, its too long and naggy, the instructor was the gayest thing ive ever seen, the steps of the dance are soo gayyyy and the music was kinda annoying after some time.
= terrible morning.
i guess what i only did was play with abby and cristy (BUDDY BUDDY)
and sing a apple and strawberry song-.-

CPR LESSON.
oh gosh, we and to purchase some CRP kit, and learn how to do CPR.
and the gross thing was, the manikin............................
they called it little anne-.- like eww, the name is sooo.. gay?
HAHA, yes, we had fun 'kissing' it and touching it.
LOL, we are supposed to find a persons nipple and perform CPR on the middle of them=.=.
then cristy was like, huh? we have to ask him/her where their nipples is, and trace a line?
LOLOLOLOLOLOL.
then the sound effects, du du du du du, found it!

Marina barrage.
it was hot fun and tiring.
I learnt little, but i know the whole of debs, abzs camera is filled with my face.
oh no.......... abz will be like horrible girl when shes uploading the photos.
HAHAHA. (L)
on the bus back to school, deb and fiona gave me this virtual barber recording to listen to.. Gosh
You know, wtf, it freaks me out.
cos its like super real?
and you can soo called really 'feel' it?!?!
eeeyer.
I had an awesome day!

i just woke up.
I feel kinda horrible.
my hair is in a mess.:(
i havent had my dinner.
life sucks now.
AHA.
i mean, do i have to face you everyday? seeing your face is the last thing that i wished for everyday.
Youre a pain in my ass.
r u mad?

hey jy, hows ur day?
was it horrible?
youre online now.
but i kinda fear to talk to you:(:(
i scared im not the one that can really make you feel better:(
cheer up yo.


okay, i think im going to eat? no maybe just play cafe world.
god, its soo fun!
haha, later~~ PICTURES!!







today = awesome!
HAHA.
i was cheering for both my class and A2. haha
both (Y)
LOL.
had loads of fun with the camera and the two person beside me!!
:0
even though we lost. HAHA, but i still had fun..
CHEERING AND BEING ACCIDENT PRONE. lolols.
i got hit by the ball, i tripped and fell down.. my feet was trapped to the net-.-
HAHA.
and poons chao ta cookies invaded cristys and my bag-.-
what a fun day!
the best thing is.
keng finally too some decent photos with me-.-
shes like always soo camera shy.
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hey andrea:
its going to be your birthday really soon.
i really hope you feel better now.
i know even though i say that its okay, in reality it might not really change anything.
but still, i want to let you know that time will change everything.
it can make a person forget about most of the unhappy details, it will also bring away all the unhappiness, it will add in more awesome and wonderful memories that you will never forget.
your dad still loves you no matter what.
dont feel sorry for yourself, its not going to work like that, you got to be brave even though we all know that its not going to be easy.
dont feel that youre lack of anything, cos you really have a bunch of good friend right beside you.
anytime, anywhere. if youre feeling really down, my singing can cheer you up, debbies hug can cheer you up, poons stupidity can cheer you up.
all your darlings will be there for you alright.
we can go back to carls jr and rant like crazy.
i can scream and shout there, so can you.
we can go to places that we have never been before, and just have fun!
its going to be fine, not soo soon, but soon.
i still rmb when i had no nobody to share my woes, you were right there with me.
you listened to my ranting, you listened to my bitching.
you lend me your shoulders, your silly laughter, the friendship HAHA
haha, now its time for me to do something for you too k?
i can lend you everything to make you feel better.
dont cry love, whatever that has happened its not okay.
but please, please dont cry.
i never felt soo bad before.
i dont like to see andrea crying.
it made me feel damn helpless.
and when debbie and everyone hugged you, we're all there to cheer you up babe!

;):):):):):):):):):):):)



I always thought that my family sucks.
seriously, today i should really stop complaining.
gosh. why do i feel soo helpless.
everyone have their problems.

ITS time to forget and let go.
its never going to happen!
cheer up silly!

hey jy:
i know you wont be reading this. but who cares.
you have a long way to go, she will see your true intention, she will understand if she really loves you.
all the best dood!
seriously. stop being unclean and d-breast. its never good for health-.-
pervfag!

HAHAHAHAHA


i feel so lousy now.
idk why.
maybe my hopes were held too high.
high enough for me to feel soo... terrible.
oh gosh. spare me.
i need to cheerup.
the best way (keng's), listen to coldplay!
too bad.


im just kidding.
seriouslyyyy
OUCH.
damn, tuition is boring.
thank god we're having a break next week..
went home after lunch, after bathing and stuff.. I was soo prepared to go out to meet andrea..
AND GUESS WHAT!?
i stepped on the fcuking yellow ugly file and i tripped and fell down>:/
even worst, i injured my toesssss. damn damn damn
oh gosh.
it started to swell and its badly bruised now
omfg.
i think i broke my toes.
T.T omf.
my brother is not being any nicer to make me feel any better >:/
oh gosh oh gosh.
what if i really break it?!
dieeee. mati.
HAHAHAHA.
oh, enough, i got to let it heal.

HAHA, with that bruised toes, i still managed to meet andrea for the youth alpha at YWCA.
not soo bad i supposed?
i saw jem, hahahaha.
look like some kid for his age.
-.-, went to spotlight, bought the cloths!
yay.
haha, half of the time i was limping around.
it was pretty fine at first, but it became worst and worst.
im scaredddddd.....

spent the rest of the afternoon and carl's jr, had a h2h talk with loveeee.
talked about almost everything.
feel so woosh naw.
happy~~
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what happened to me??
sili ahhhh.
get over it please.
like what julia told me, enough is enough!
once bitten twice shy yo.
learnt your lesson yeah?!




Okay, enough of toes, cloths and whatever not.
going to bathe naw?
maybe sleep?
maybe do the pouch.
HAHA. whatever it is.
laterrrr~~
im feeling extremely evil.
its not good for me to feel this way, cause most probably i had the most 'awesome' day in my life.
come on, i slept at 3am, sooo damn tiring i tell yoouu.
guzheng was just -.-
Im soooo disgusted by it i really wannnnna die.
tuition was fine, that realllyyyy made meeeeeee evil.
come on, all the calculations.
T.T
never gonna try that, (yeah right..)

todays grooming class was funneh!
the trainer is greatttt, not like we've got some !#$%^&&*&^%$..

tmrrrrr is sat, omfg, sian.
physics tuition................... (opens mouth)
O_O

Im soo upset due to ystd incident.
you know?! the feeling of being left behind.
wtffff shaddap silly D:

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like what youre feeling.
im feeling the exact same too.
just that i feel safe.
extremely secured, caused i promised that im never going to let you down.
do you trust me?
no, you didnt and now you have it coming.
Oh gosh, im soo full:D:D:D:D
heeeeeee.
come on, im soooo clean!
whats with being UNCLEAN=DIRTY?!
haha.
oh gosh.
this is funneh!
Shaggggggggggggg~
got backk all papers.
im happy enough cause im able to promote.
^^
had frolick tgt with V~
Lol, lets go backkk some other dayyy yeahhhh?!
:( i had to walk backkkk home under the pouring rain.
oh gosh!:(

yay yay yay. my stomach hurts likeeeeee !!$#$%^%$^%$
ouchD:
HAHA.

oh esther, is cute!
i hope to have half of her brain :D:D:D
HAHAHAHAHA.
but she refused to give it to me >:/

hmm, i want to make the pouch for keng, but shes in training so idk whats her hp's sizeeee.
lol, that evil woman accused me but failed HAHAHAHA
boo keng.
lols, and she thinkssssssssss sussie is sexy yo ^^
fun fun fun, she kept dong shou dong jiao today..
meanieeeee.

soo funneh, oh gosh.
okay, im going to play with cloths and sew things :D
buhbyeeee peepuls.
i love you love!
HEEE.
today wasnt sooooooo bad..
people that were sitting around me made the whole sevice muchhhhhh more bearable....
esp the camera^^HAHA.
however... i was constantly falling asleep.(-.-)
lol, took alot of pictures today^^
after 2 and a half hrs, we all went to have lunch (LJS=(L)+(Y)) and went shopping at ps.
haha, talked to abby on the way. figured out things that i couldnt figure out. HAHA.
went off to meet my dad at bugis after reading the book of bunny suicides at Times.(aha, damn funny, esp with abbys weird sound effects)
saw this very nice cloth at spotlight. going to get it on friday or sat?
perfect for my ipod:D

so tired>:/
tmr getting back moreeeee papers.
sian sian sian sian sian. hours and hours of torture.
better sleep early today!

seriously, the sight of you makes me wanna smile.
youre so good i wish i can be your friend forever.
im sorry for doing things that are wrong.
cause we meant to be tgt.
:(:(

I feel so bad lately, one thing is my attitude towards V in the past.
cause i judged the book by the cover, cause i thought i was the best and anyone that was not that perfect sucks.
i threw remarks that hurt others, i mocked at others without consideration.
what about myself?
i did things that i should be ashamed of too.
who am i to laugh at ppl?
not as if im the prettiest, smartest or have the nicest character-.-
the past few days, i have been talking to V, i felt that i owe her alot.
Im sorry, i will be a good friend yeah?

Lol, okay im watching videos on youtube.
how boring can life get?!
LOL. lacking of faith.
yeah w.e, gtg!
quite awhile since i've blog hereeee.
(cos i ran away to hide some secrets):)
today is quite boring?
checked papers.. AND SOMETHING HAPPY HAPPENED TODAY:):):)
cristy and i were soo gald cause both of us passed english, (ON THE DOT).*yay*
HAHA, hope nth goes wrong with the marks, dont wish to retain:(
Im so HAHAHAHA lately, cause you know is soo hahahahahahaha :D:D:D:D*hint hint double hint*
talked to mr ng today, thought about what he said, actually makes alot of sense.
i should stop and refrain from dwelling on negative remarks, thoughts or whatever.
its okay, this time its really going to be fine.
i MIGHT have lost a friend(?) or two in the process, but it wasnt intentional.
yup, not going to say alot here. its not as easy as what you guys think ^^
keep it simple. keep it sweet.
:D

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Keng, im so sorry to msg you using v's name.
(esther's fault) HAHA
but now, im going to msg you everyday, asking you: wheres sussie?!
HAHAHA, not going to hide yeah?
<3
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aww, thanks esther for your shoulder, i hope i didnt freak you out this morning.
i was very not myself..
congrats for getting so high for emaths genius, now i have to think of a reason to explain to raymond! LOL

SUN ZI YOU, MY VERY LOVE IS THE CHAMPION!
HOW GOOD CAN LIFE GET?!!?!?!
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

lol, tmr's founder's day.
will be abit annoying, but still, LOL.
school=waste time=avoid noisy parents=zilianing all the way
HAHA. jy is having tuition now, hes pissed and he kept swearing. >:/
my parents are fighting very badly agn, only esther knows how bad it is:(:(:(
w.e not important..
okay, gtg makan.
later~

ps. im not going to act brave, im going to be very truthful from now on. if youre asking me to just forget about it, i will. dont worry, not causing you any problems.
im staying away, happily(?)

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